Through Skys Eyes

Hey again,

I forgot to thank all those that commented. so I apologize and I have done a special post for you guys.

Sorry again and big thanks. Wopila Tanka

Thanks to:

kelly from 30 Somethings Blog She has a awesome blog , you should all definitely check it out. Thanks for visiting my blog.

Lisa from Urban Native Girl. .. Who by the way I know Cante Waste staff havent updated their blog, but has been granted a free website from Cante Waste. and BTW I am Sky one of your designers. Thanks for checking the blog. If you have any questions bout your site you can ask me through here as well

Justice Fergie From mamalaw blog - when i hear her name i have this sudden compulsion to do the law and order music and speak in a low voice and say ” Judge Fergie, Mama Law will always get you”. I have no idea why..  Anyway Justice fergie thanks for checking the blog.

Ok i think that is everyone, If i have missed anyone let me know.. hugs and kisses to ya all..

Well today I sit at home in tears and know nothing of why I cry.

Have you ever felt that feeling of being so in love with someone, so deeply and truly in love it almost hurts? You want nothing more than to be with that person. To kiss and caress that person. To please that person and be there for him. To be in each other’s embrace all day and all night long.

Well that is what I am feeling in my heart right now. Yeah I know what you’re thinking. “So what, that’s normal when you’re in a relationship”. Yeah but the problem is I am in no relationship or even have someone in my mind. I am in love with no one.

I’ve been feeling this way for weeks now and I can’t seem to shake it. Like I have to be in a relationship or maybe like my Soul is crying out for someone that is not here. Or maybe my soul lover is crying out for me and I just can’t find him.

I don’t know what it is, but it has a hold over me and I can’t get back to normal.(lol normal was never all that normal anyway) I even went and had blood tests in case it was a hormone thing. Lmao

According to the tests everything seems normal. So why then do I feel so heartbroken because I cannot have that love of my life with me (who by the way, in case you haven’t picked up on this… does not exist or maybe he does I just haven’t found him).

Yep that’s right, Sky is madly in love and heartbroken with NOONE… This is going to drive me crazy. And Now I am officially obsessed with this… that I look like a mad person with a twitchy eye, because I can’t even sleep properly.

Well I did some investigating; I thought maybe if I got some answers it might make me feel better.

Apparently it’s quite normal to have these phases come and go in our lives. But usually it has to do with depression.

But I don’t feel like I am depressed. I am not so much as sad, but more like I am missing someone. You know when that first time your love can’t stay and has to go home, or when you have to hang up the phone and all you want to do is keep talking. It’s like that ALL THE TIME…. LET ME REPEAT THAT INCASE YOU DIDNT GET IT THE FIRST TIME… IT’S LIKE THAT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL THEEEEEEEEEEEEEE TIMEEEEEEEEEEEE. Miss cool calm and sexy is now turning into an all out psycho chasing down any might be soul mates. And it is seriously starting to scare some people.

Well anyway, I didn’t find any answers. I guess maybe it’s just my soul saying it desperately needs love.

But it feels the world don’t love me cause it isn’t making it any easier to find my soul lover. In Eric Benet’s famous words “Love don’t Love me”

Well till next time people… Take care… and since I’m in the mood… Kisses and hugs to all of you… And you good looking ones out there… I give you extra kisses. (As long as I get some back):P

Ok, so here I am. My fav bottle of red wine.. No idea what brand, I dont really drink red wine, so therefore I really dont have a fav, but I thought it just sounded nice as an opening line.

But I did make a point of buying any cheap wine in the store to celebrate valentines day and make some wish list about what I want in a perfect man.

Well after three glasses of wine all I got on my list was:

1. Male

2. Tall

3. But not too Tall

4. Prefer long hair

So obviously my list thing, wasnt such a great idea.. So what is like to spending Valentines on your own. Well for the most part of the day I didnt even realize it was valentines. Then the night came and I dashed to the store to pick up some syrups for my jacks. and everywhere I went, there were roses, balloons, teddy bears and chocolate. Lots and lots of chocolate. Almost bought a box so i can soak in wine and chocolate and be depressed. But i resisted and went to the store, got my syrup and bought a block of chocolate. Well its not a real box of chocolate. its every day chocolate. so it doesnt count.

Came home, made my jacks, smothered it in syrup .. had some wine and made sure not to watch any love stories movies.

I got the most unlove story movie out there. “Dances with wolves” lol joking. I put on Pineapple express. had a good laugh, the wine helped.

Then began to think about how bad is it being single anyways? We all make out like its such a sad thing (which i will admit, at times it is) But how come we dont have a singles day?? I have no idea what to call it maybe something like “going solo day” it could be the day of the year, everyone breaks up from those depressing relationships they have been meaning to get out of for years but just couldnt pick the right day to do so.

I mean, it would give all us single gals out there a chance of actually having a valentines day., if half the men broke up with their girlfriends just before.

I think it (Going Solo Day) should be held somewhere maybe just before new years, after christmas. That way we can impress our family with our partners, dump them by new years so we can party hard, then we have a good month of snagging to find the next perfect partner for valentines Day.

I might even start a petition on this.. We will see how I feel when I wake up in the morning and get over this wine.. Till Then, Here is another glass of wine for you all..

Ok so here I am at work, doing my usual boring office stuff i gotta do each day in and out. But its cool, cause thats what pays the rent.

I gotta seduction by Usher blasting in my head set.. damn that man is hot.. but anyways.. back to work..

I got myself repeating in my head “concentrate, concentrate” but for some reason my mind keeps wandering to sex.

Maybe it has something to do with the song thats blasting in my ears right now, or maybe it has something to do with Usher or  Maybe cause last night I went out on a date that didnt quite go as planned.

He wanted some, but its like he just out there with it. And that is the biggest turn off for me, I need passion, i need intimacy, I need kissing. God do I love kissing. but anyways back to this.

So i saw this article on Womens Health Magazine, called “56 reasons to have sex” well you know me, I only need 2 reasons, “when and where” but my mind was there , so i figured id have a read. and it had me laughing. The funny thing is, i read the comments after it, one particular guy said “More women need to read this”I think he probably thought if more women read this, he might have more chances of getting laid. which makes me laugh, cause its funny how a guy can never turn to him self and think “hmm maybe its me, maybe she just dont want to sleep with me, maybe im doing something wrong” instead the first thing a guy does is “there something wrong with that woman, or find some other excuse.”

But i thought i’d bring a couple of these points up or “reasons”to have sex. Cause I believe sex is an important and vital part of a relationship, especially if you want it to last. I mean if you sick of him, then so be it. but if you want to keep him or her, then you gotta make that other person feel special and there aint no better way to do that than by having a nice all nighter with that special person, phones off, bubbles in the bath, strawberries and cream, some champagne.. well i wont get to carried away.. but you dont need all those extras, just the two of you and the mood is enough.

For example one time my ex sent me txt message stating how he missed me etc and we hadn’t seen each other in days, so i knew he had the day off from work, so i took a half day left at lunch, headed over there and spent the day just in each other arms doing our secret dance under the sheets. there was nothing planned, or anything else but us, but it was beautiful.

So you don’t need props or anything, sometimes they can make things exciting, but so can the beach at night or the back seat of a car.. the sky is the limit, use the imagination.

Anyway I know i get carried away, but here are some of these reasons, that i liked:

• Apparently having sex makes you happier than money does. So if we all have sex then this economic crisis wont bug us no more lol.
• It also mellows our moods. so before going into some high pressure meeting where you know your going to crack, go call your partner up for a quickie.
• For all you constantly sick people, having regular sex boosts your immune system by 30% how they get that percentage, i dont know. but hey thats pretty cool.
• having sex releases an overload of endorphins and can alleviate pain from arthritis and menstrual cramps. Can i get an AMEN!!
• This one i love. Did you know that when men have sex, they are so filled with oxytocin that they are now at our level. So you know if you want him to propose or do something girly, you need to sleep with him and then start dropping hints, but do it quick cause that shit wears off.
• Here is the ironic part, apparently us women absorb some testosterone during sex, so we now no longer care about that girly shit. lol just joking.  but we do get an increase in energy levels from the testosterone.
• …And we get a firm butt, and tighter tummy. Kick those hours of torture at the gym to the curb.
• Did you know sex can save your mans life??? well ok not exactly the way your thinking, but it reduces his chances of suffering a heart attack or a stroke.
• Get flexible. Sex can help make you flexible and score that job as a snoop dogg back up dancer.
• You dont need to speak his language. Its great aint it. you have hot passionate sex, and you dont even need to speak to the guy. it dont matter if he speaks italian, spanish, chinese, canadian (lol) sex is sex.. in any language… “baby speak to me in french all you want… you cant say anything stupid to turn me off now.. cause i dont understand you” just heavenly aint it.. worse thing when you getting right into it and he just say something stupid.. like “did you cum yet?”or Äre you on the rag?” baby if i was on the rag, you would know about it by now.. you only just stuck your head down there 5 minutes ago..
• sex releases tension unless you sleep with a man that just spends the entire time saying stupid things.
• use it or lose it.. the more sex you have the more testosterone you produce which makes you feel like having sex. if you go with out sex for a while, then you wont feel like having sex cause you have very little testosterone. possible have low levels of energy and become more emotional or restless too.
• have a headache.. not any more.. have some horizontal pain relief.
• strengthen your core!! yes pilates people.. where do you think they get those damn moves from.. huh. well i dont have proof, but let me tell ya, i enjoy pilates much more when i got my partner with me.
• best excuse for pricey lingerie
• Active sex life slows the ageing process according to mr David Weeks.

So too bad im single now, cause now i have to go fishing.. but for all of you guys and gals not getting it on together and you have a partner… don’t make me come over and slap you!!! get over there, start with the kisses on the neck, then some more beautiful hot passionate kissing and close the door, turn of the phones, and get that prince record on . and start working on your pilates moves.

Till next time..

Sky the native diva signing out.. ..

The other day I was at the gym, doing my huge work out. Yes I do get off my butt from time to time and wobble myself down to the gym and hit that treadmill.lol

So there I was in my best work out clothes, walked the long walk down to the gym, I usually try and go there as quick as I can cause its a great warm up. I ran up the stairs the gym, by this stage im excited about getting to the gym, cause for me its a great stress reliever. Usually by the end of my work out I am so exhausted, that I cant even worry or stress about anything. I run up, say hi to the owners, do my regular chit chat i do, grab my bottle of water and run into the small womens gym room.

So I hit the on button of my treadmill, put my bottle of water and phone into the drink holder, turn my treadmill on at 4.5 miles per hour and start walking briskly on the treadmill.

The speakers is pounding out dance music, and im moving and grooving to the beat. I have the timer set to 15 minutes. constantly all that is going through my mind is every step i take is getting me closer to my ultimate goal. every step I take is getting me closer to my ultimate goal.

That day was a huge day, kids woke up late, work was hectic, people in an out of the office demanding something from me, get home and have clients from my designing business wanting this and that, kids wanting food, toys, hugs, complain and vent, my to do list is screaming at me from the fridge door, and it was all too much. In the end the gym to me felt like my only way out. I still hadn’t even sat down at home, i walked through the door, fixed the kids, took business phone calls, and answered emails at the same time, it felt as if i was never going to get a chance to sit down and relax.

So while i was on the treadmill i was trying to chant this so i wouldnt let that stress back in my head, but somehow stess has a way of getting in no matter what you do.

My chant started changing to, gotta get the kids uniforms washed by morning, - my daughter has swimming lessons tomorrow, etc

Its amazing how this happens. Even when you try to block it all out, it still creeps in. anyway I finished my 15 minutes on the treadmill and I didnt realize but I was sweating like I have never sweated before.

I had drips falling off my eyelashes and chin. So i was impressed and happy with my work out on the treadmill, i wiped my face, grabbed a magazine that had jenifer aniston on the front cover and sat on the work out bike. Looked for a half decent article to read, found one, had a couple of pictures in it, started pedalling on my bike, pressed the start button, set my time duration and level and i was off.

I began to read. OMG. Here I was complaining about my day, about the wonderful gifts I have in my life and that I at times dont realy appreciate and here is a woman, no correction - “SUPERWOMAN” who has had my worse nightmare happen to her and yet survived.

anyway this made me want to come here and share a little about this women. I cant remember her name but i will never forget her story.

This woman was going around the world teaching english, and on her teaching journey she landed a teaching job in Thailand. While teaching there for a few years, she met this man. He was wonderful, sincere, loving. His family welcomed her in to their home and he seemed like the perfect man. They got married in what was like a fairytale thailand style wedding.

Not long after they were having their first child she started feeling home sick. so she agreed with her husband, after the birth of their daughter they would go to Australia where she was from.

they had set up their home in australia, she had begun working regular hours and he had a job as well, not as great as hers but it was a job. Not long she was once again pregnant.  Soon she couldn’t work due to her pregnancy and he had the sole responsibility to bring the money home.

So basically from that point, they moved into a villa her father owned (her father lived next door), she gave birth to a boy and the relationship between her and her husband had begun to strain.

It wasnt long before he became abusive and that was the final straw. She told him to leave and took out restraining orders against him.

He constantly kept breaking his restraining orders, and she suffered constant threats that he was going to end his life and hers.

One night he had broken into the villa and raped her. in the morning she had the police over and they had asked her to go to the police station to file a report. Her father trying to support her, said “dont worry you go, I will stay here with the kids. ” she kissed and hugged her babies and went with the police officer to the station.

That was the final words she ever spoke with her father and children.

that was her final kiss and hug, never to receive another one like it again.

He had come while she was filing her report and killed, stabbed her children and her father, then himself.

She got to the drive way of her house, and there he was standing in the front lawn covered in blood. Her life had been turned over and changed forever.

I can only imagine what she felt and went through. to be honest I cant even imagine it. just trying to put myself in her shoes leaves me in tears.

Well I finished reading this article, mean while i was still pedalling 100 miles per hour, they ladies must have thought i was crazy cause her I am sweating like never before, and crying at the same time, and the speed of my bike changed with each sentence i read.

It really made me think and put life in perspective. This woman now helps others and has started her own organization in honour of her children. She has somehow turned this into a positive. When most cant even turn their troubled childhood to a positive, she has turned any mothers worst nightmare into something of beauty and love.

I finished my work out and constantly i had thoughts pop into my mind about what she went through, I just couldnt wait till i got home to my children.

I got home and sweaty, smelly and all grabbed both my children and kissed them, hugged them and carressed their sweet faces, they both just turned to me and said ” mom , you need a shower” .. it made me laugh and i realized then, that no matter how crazy they drive me, the love I have for them is unconditional and its a wonderful experience I have been gifted with.

Till next time